same old shit, different day.

2009-07-15T14:23:00.004+08:00

omg, damn long lah since i blogged. haha so much had happened during this period of absence.
for the better, definitely for the better.
new friends, new beginnings, new chapters in my life which i'm thankful and grateful for.
first off, definitely my new bandmates who are my source of strength and comfort these few months, and Josh, wah nan ren de nan ren club changed my life.
and Huiyi the cheese to my fries, you're by far the best girlfriend ever. damn peaceful and comfortable with you. God sent. period.

ok ok enough, i went to bangkok this year! and it was amazing. ying2, angel, darren and choon2 went along. it's one of the best road trip i've taken with my friends. wanna go back again so badly. countless of photos and shopping of course. basically words dont do justice to the experience i had there.

ah and school's starting on monday. i'm excite. i'm quite lazy to type and to think of words to say. ok bye!

Bear with me, bear with me. This is all i have left.

2008-10-20T00:48:00.001+08:00

hello jeremy?
are u still there?
dont go in too far now.
you will nv come back if you do.

2008-10-17T03:33:00.001+08:00

"I can't call you a friend
Cause when you left me here
You left me here to die
Don't worry I wont call you again
Cause when I take a hint
I take it pretty hard
And when you broke my heart
You broke it into shards of glass

Can I call you my friend?
It's been so long
Since we have talked
And I miss you
Don't worry I'm over you right now
So my feelings wont get in the way of it
Oh, I miss the way we talked
About the little things"

Reindeer Section - Your Sweet Voice

2008-10-12T04:09:00.002+08:00

it doesn't get easy by the day.
days passes and not one moment i've stopped thinking about you.
everywhere i look, i'm just staring into an abyss,
i just can't see the end of the tunnel.
where's the light, where's the hope?
right now it's just me kicking and screaming to survive.
would you understand these words?
or am i too far gone?

either way, i'm not okie.
maybe in time i will.
but not yet. not yet i'm not.

Fear Of Flying - A Rocket To The Moon

"Can you take me back to the person I used
To be back when you were there for me I
Know it seems like forever but do me this
Favor please way back when we were stupid and
Held grudges just to help us sleep oh my
God, how ridiculous were we?"

i crashed, black and blue. sweet mother of jesus.

2008-10-04T03:36:00.006+08:00

All Again For You - We The Kings

she's fucking matt damon! he's fucking ben affleck!

2008-09-24T21:50:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHA OMG THIS IS SO AWESOME.
FUCKING HILARIOUS!

followed by,

2008-09-22T15:54:00.002+08:00

my life is on a standstill right now. how should i put it across?
life is NS really break or make someone's spirit.
ahh fuck that shit.

anyways i really have no idea why am i keep this blog. i guess it's a good channel for release. release what i might add? hmmm, well nothing is constant in my life. there's no stability, dont give me that crap that change is the only constant. because when you haven even gotten used to that change, another one comes running in. so there's no end to it am i right to say? you know, what i'm trying to say is that no one will ever be content with what they have even though they are by far fucking lucky.
fuck that too.

so i heard As I Lay Dying is coming. that is another good opportunity for me to release some much controlled angry inside me. i love hitting those stupid scene kids.
man, i want to be spaceman and moonwalk on the moon. and i wanna meet Juliet Simms badly. bahh.

and this is a shout out to everyone i miss quite terribly.
jaslyn teo ah lian.
mable the salad girl.
lucas the kids central host.
therese heng ah heng!
the ava guys. shen i know you are leaving soon, so hang out please.
aaron low how low can you go.

sigh. okie lah, enough.

sometimes you got to get right to the edge of death in order to be saved.

hello kyler

2008-08-17T22:56:00.001+08:00

i'm now a 5 and a half old puppy owner.
(: i love my chocolate lab.

2008-06-29T12:35:00.001+08:00

it's my fault lah okie.
everything is my fault.
and i will never change. so why not you just give up on me already then because no matter how much i try it's never ever good enough for you.

2008-06-04T11:36:00.001+08:00

hello, ni hao!
we are back, and gigging this sat at home club. please do come down if ever you are free.
(:
tickets at 10bucks per person!
please k!

2008-05-24T13:31:00.000+08:00

so you want to hold me up and bring me down?
yes you want to hold me up and bring me down.

2008-05-08T23:21:00.001+08:00

i'm sticking to you, cause i'm made out of glue.
anything that you might do, i will do too.

oh god, make me the strongest glue available.

2008-04-25T15:01:00.001+08:00

hello people it's been awhile.
but before i blog about anything other thing, i think everyone should go catch this movie, August Rush.

this is a clip, i fell in love the moment i heard it.

enjoy yo!

When your hearts been breached and your guards been let down

2008-03-02T22:39:00.002+08:00

This is as quiet as it gets hush down now go to sleep we were once perfect me and you will never leave this room

Hush you color my eyes red your loves not live its dead this letters written itself inside out again when rivers turn to roads and lovers become trends

Hush this is where it ends

This is the calming before the storm We’ve been here like before this absolution is always incomplete its always bittersweet

I wont make a sound so you don't wake don't wake don't wake you don't wake you don't wake

2008-03-02T01:47:00.003+08:00

for this whole period of time, the places i've been and everywhere i look, they were the shadows of you and the things you left behind.
and everyday, the thoughts of you stirred up memories of brutal intensity.
just so you know, too.

that was a joke, sweet jesus.

2008-02-26T21:09:00.004+08:00

You're a part time lover and a full time friend
The monkey on your back is the latest trend
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

Here is the church and here is the steeple
We sure are cute for two ugly people
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

We both have shiny happy fits of rage
I want more fans, you want more stage
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

You're always trying to keep it real
I'm in love with how you feel
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

I kiss you on the brain in the shadow of a train
I kiss you all starry eyed, my body's swinging from side to side
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

The pebbles forgive me, the trees forgive me
So why can't, you forgive me?
I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else
But you

2008-02-25T02:57:00.002+08:00

it feels like you're almost here.

2008-02-21T23:31:00.001+08:00

i just want to tell you that Saosin is coming.
and they are opening for Incubus.
here's your chance to finally catch them.

2008-02-16T14:54:00.001+08:00

Can't beat the best ones
A little closer maybe a bit too close
You function you turn out
A flawless performance

Turn your camera away from me
Spill your guts in 8mm
Put your focus where your mouth is
You're the only one who's fading here

Such holidays in the sun don't come without sacrifices
You know it makes more sense
Such holidays in the sun don't come without sacrifices
You know

I like the way you cry
Break my heart and break my hands and let me down
I want to snap your neck in two
And leave you for dead, you are so dead

Turn your camera away from me
Spill your guts in 8mm
Put your focus where your mouth is
You're the only one who's fading here

Such holidays in the sun don't come without sacrifices
You know it makes more sense
Such holidays in the sun don't come without sacrifices
You know it makes more sense

on and on and on and on and on

2008-02-14T00:42:00.000+08:00

אמונה

2008-02-13T10:52:00.002+08:00

______, do you remember
How I carried your heart
And I carried it far
And I know that there's no one to blame
It's a sure given shame
Of my own that you don't remember

i miss you so, but my heart tells me no.

2008-02-11T15:46:00.000+08:00

Every day it's every down
And every night you turn around
You tell me kindly that you like me
Just the way I am now
Well, if you like me so much
Tell me, why are you giving up?
Is it worth enough?
I guess it's not
I can't believe that it happened to me

But then you tell me that you see
Something here you can't imagine living without me
Well, I can see right through your lies
The clear glass cover of your pride
There's nothing wrong with what you keep inside
I can't believe it happened to me

Just stay around
You're too far out
Who's gonna go?

I hope you see
It's truly me who's gonna go

2008-02-08T19:20:00.000+08:00

to the people i've been missing the past year.
here's to you guys.

2008-02-07T01:01:00.000+08:00

so between the last post and now, i've been multi-tasking like mad.
mixing my music sample and talking to 9 people at the same time. and watching youtube.
okie lah 9 people is not alot but still.
with a guitar on your lap and the messenger keep making so much noise. haha
okie bye!

2008-02-06T23:35:00.000+08:00

i think this is pretty old, but everytime i look at this video i just can't do it.
haha.

happy cny guys.

2008-02-05T17:35:00.000+08:00

please, stop hurting.
please, stop beating.

cause you don't love me the way that,
i love you.
cause if you did you will not,
do the things you do.

2008-02-04T23:02:00.001+08:00

you and me, is a love and hate thing.

2008-02-02T08:54:00.000+08:00

maybe if my heart stop beating,
it won't hurt this much.

still remembering Heath.
still remembering you.

2008-01-27T23:56:00.000+08:00

if ever my heart could speak, it would speak of these words.

2008-01-27T04:06:00.000+08:00

Daniela Hantuchova. you make tennis enjoyable to watch. (:

2008-01-25T01:10:00.000+08:00

hmmmm Hantuchova lost to Ivanovic, and Nadal Lost to an unseeded Tsonga.
amazing tennis.
anyways i'm really trying to take things easy and try to be content with everything i have or dont have now. emptiness is something to get used to.

The next time I see you, you'll turn away
I'll say "Hello" but you'll keep on walking
The next time you see me, I'll turn away
Do you remember where we used to sleep at night?
I couldn't feel you, you're always so far away

2008-01-23T14:24:00.000+08:00

Heath Ledger is dead. ): omg.

Hush - Automatic Loveletter

2008-01-18T17:18:00.000+08:00

2008-01-18T00:39:00.000+08:00

so to my dear jaslyn.
i really love you so much, that sometimes i may come across down right fierce.
haha so why am i proclaiming my love to jaslyn so randomly?
because that dear girl wrote this whole paragraph on her blog.

"Jeremy will always be my bestest male friend ever. FIVE YEARS love! five years of having to hear your singing, your guitar playing.
YOU ARE A BLOODY ASSHOLE, but also the kind of asshole that will make his way down from punngol to jurong if need be, just to be my side to comfort me.
you are the first guy whom ive cried over (i dont think you know!) haha. Happened whent the leaders attempted to make me stop talking to you. Wah cried like a baby. haha. you are important and i pray we'll never drift.
I WANTED TO GIVE YOU A HUG WHEN I BUMPED INTO YOU IN TOWN THE THE OTH DAY, but like so crowded ah, and you seemed to be in a rush ):
I know most people say that people aren't really friends forever, and that people change... and I know that is true. Really, I do. But, for as long as we possibly can, let's try to prove that theory wrong, ok? I can't imagine not ever being able to pick up the phone and talk to you. You keep me sane, you remind me that no matter what's changed, there are some things that remain... and those things are what I cherish.
yes jek, you're already part of my DNA, just like i'm of yours or so says you. i dont really get it la, but its okay.
i love you and i dont want you to go army!"

that sweet girl which i will always be ever so protective of.

so i saw her that day but i was really nervous about meeting the artist about my tattoo, and i really wasnt expecting to see anyone i know.
it was a pleasent surprise.

so this is the rough idea of the tattoo i want on my back.

i've really planned this for a long while and now i'm really gonna go ahead with this tattoo already.
and it's gonna cost about 800 to 1000.
err okie my mind is a blank now. haha!
okie bye!

Hush - Automatic Loveletter

2008-01-16T00:15:00.000+08:00

i'm falling into, memories of you.

2008-01-13T05:04:00.000+08:00

I don't want this moment
To ever end
Where every thing's nothing, without you
I wait here forever just to,
To see you smile
Cause it's true
I am nothing without you

I want you to know
With everything, I won't let this go
These words are my heart and soul
And I'll hold on to this moment you know
As I bleed my heart out to show
And I won't let go

2008-01-12T15:09:00.000+08:00

i feel betrayed.

by you.

2008-01-09T16:33:00.001+08:00

Go on just say it,
You need me like a bad habit,
One that leaves you defenseless, dependent, and alone.
Go on just say it (Are you afraid to),
You need me like a bad habit (Say what you want to, tell me you want to),
One that leaves you defenseless, dependent, and alone (Are you afraid to say what you want to, tell me you want to)

Wait, they don't love you like i love you. They really don't, I really do.

2008-01-08T13:39:00.000+08:00

jeng jeng jeng my guitar today.

so i just found out that gossip girls is actually damn addictive to watch. haha omg it's kinda better than The OC. but who cares.
and i brought a new dvd today, for a damn cheap price, i got 28 Weeks Later.

Imogen Poots, i just want to say i love you ever since i saw you in V for Vendetta.

omg, you see, so hot lah.

and i ate sushi yesterday!
okie, and jaslyn, thank you lah k?
haha

Girl Inform Me - The Shins

2008-01-06T11:23:00.000+08:00

it was Dom's 21st last night.
i know he had fun last night, but i was down right dull to me.
oh well. atleast Andrew brought his Evo 10 so we could have some fun driving around siglap and marine parade.

but there were a few moments that were quite interesting.

1. first thing Kaz ask me was, "where's jie jie celine, how come she don't come to family gatherings anymore?"

2. Dom's invited his major from camp to the party. (like huh???)

3. Jotham did his material boy (madonna's Material Girl) parody. down right funny

4. the Evo 10

5. Rocky's pizzas. haha they are damn good.

err i cant think of any anymore. so okie bye.

Justin Timberlake - Cry Me A River

dizziness

2008-01-05T17:01:00.000+08:00

"A beautiful girl can make you dizzy, like you've been drinking jack and coke all morning. She can make you feel high, full of the single greatest commodity known to man: promise; promise of a better day, promise of a greater hope, promise of a new tomorrow. This particular aura can be found in the gaze of a beautiful girl: in her smile, and in her soul, and the way she makes every rotten little thing about life seem like it's gonna be okie"

i dedicate this to you.
and hey, i did all the background music from scratch all right.
except the talking. haha
okie, keep safe. take care

Great Romances Of The 20th Century - Taking Back Sunday

2008-01-03T15:05:00.000+08:00

these were the best of me.
i really wish someone would kill me, knock me over when i'm crossing the road, the lift would drop me straight down to meet my maker, and that most of all,
my heart would suffer a heart attack due to this broken heart.

the only people i talk to these days are from msn, i miss hearing voices.
because the only voices i hear now are those in my head telling me that i should just give up.
but i can't, i must not.

i am a curse.
everyone i said i love you too, leave eventually.
and up till now, i really don't know what happened, or what i did.
i guess that's history now.
i'll find a way to move on. i will.

please sing me to sleep rachael, i miss listening to you.

Rachael Yamagata - Quiet

Tongue Tied.

2008-01-02T16:34:00.000+08:00

Bright cold silver moon
Tonight alone in my room
You were here just yesterday
Slight turn of the head
Eyes down when you said
I guess I need my life to change
Seems like something's just aren't the same
What could I say?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cause every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I'll need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cause every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I stare up at the stars
I wonder just where you are
You feel a million miles away
(I wonder just where you are)
Was it something I said?
Or something I never did?
Or was I always in the way?
Could someone tell me what to say to just make you stay?

I need a little more luck than a little bit
Cause every time I get stuck the words won't fit
And every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by

I need a little more help than a little bit
Like the perfect one word no one's heard yet
Cause every time that I try I get tongue tied
I need a little good luck to get me by this time

I know it feels like the end
Don't want to be here again
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
What it takes I don't care
We're gonna make it I swear
And we could help each other off the ground so we never fall down again
Again

2008-01-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

goodbye 2007, i'll leave everything behind with it.
2007 broke me as a person.
hopefully 2008 will build me up again.

Death Cab For Cutie - Transatlanticism

2007-12-27T09:50:00.000+08:00

so i just read yk blog, i feel for her. what she wrote was beautiful.
and i relate to her.
just wanna quote her,

"I woke up from my dream crying. I felt so hurt. This year, from A to Z, it was a far cry from pain. Do you really think I have gotten well? Ironically, I had the same dream you told me you had - the two hearts flowing down the river and somehow just how I don’t exactly know, you knew my heart was broken and very, very hurt.
Now I know how it feels like. I should have been there for you, on your bed, I could have filled your void and you could fill mine. But why? Why did I follow after your dream? How do you deal with a story like this? Holy mary, mother of god, can someone give me a sign?
Maybe we are all writing our names in the lives of the ones we miss.",

i think you rock yk, no matter how crazy your laughter and basically how crazy you are.
someone told me last night, "don't make someone a priority when they only make you an option.", but you're not just someone, you were the one.
but anyhoooo yahoooo, enough.

let's make this work now jeremy.
2008 will be by far the best year yet.

you are one that leaves me defenseless, dependent, and alone

Caracal - The Best Defence is Nonsense

2007-12-25T04:47:00.000+08:00

thank you for a crappy december and a christmas spent alone.
thank you for the warm wishes that never came.
thank you the gifts which i will never receive.
so thank you.

i hate festive's seasons and birthday.
it's just me and my t-vo tonight! thank god there's Chris Garver, and Armi James on tv tonight.

Swim - In Flames

Every Avenue - Where Were You

2007-12-23T05:32:00.000+08:00

Home for the weekend,
Looking for a good time;
Of all the numbers you end up calling mine.
Ready or not , I think I’ll give this a shot.
I should know better than to
Give her what she wants.
I picked her up and she was three-forths gone.
She passed out before we even got to talk.
All I want to know is:

Where were you when I needed you most?
Why did you leave me alone?
We gave up before we gave it a chance,
And I don’t understand.

Back to where we left off, baby.
“How you been and what’s been new with you lately?”
Just forget it, it’s the same old runaround.
You build me up just to let me down.
Down!

Where were you when I needed you most?
Why did you leave me alone?
We gave up before we gave it a chance,
And I don’t understand.

Just forget it, it’s the same old runaround,
Just forget it, just forget it

2007-12-21T21:42:00.000+08:00

a part of me is dead. lost and forgotten.
you killed it. you stood there and watch my heart die, and then walked away pretending that you have nothing to do with it at all.
cold heartedly turn your back on me, how can i ever forgive you, how did i managed to look past everything in the first place?
i'm was being played like a fool all this while. this is my story, this is my time now.
you will never be part of it ever again.
i told myself all this while, it's worth the wait.
i was fatally mistaken, you were never worth the waiting.

go and lead your happy life, even along the way you have to break some hearts, as long as you are in the center of all the attention.
cause after all, nobody else matters. until they don't matter anymore then it's worth your time.
because you have your defenses high up by then, you have your heart turned to stone by then, you are well protected behind the arms of people who don't care for you as much as i do.
but the term "I" really doesn't matter. because i'm just me, i'm just jeremy.
i'm not a guy who thinks he's a sweet and sensitive, who's a ladies' boy, looks like a stick with a huge nose. or maybe a guy who's 24 years old, buy duck from China just to get you over to his place.
no i'm not them.

i'm just the guy who fought for you, who never allowed you pay for anything, who never let you go home alone after work.
who cooks for you.
who surprises you when you always least expected.
who buys food for you so you will never have to go hungry.
who always make sure you are asleep before going to bed, who waited outside your house for 4 hours when you said you will be home 4 hours ago.
who comes running to you when you start tearing no matter how late the time is.
who sacrifice so much just to be with you.
who calls you everyday without fail even though being out of town.
who pushes you to study and still have to get scolded by you all the time, who is willing to humble himself in town just to make you smile.
who went all out to get whatever things you need so just you can have more time for yourself.
who do so much for your birthday.
who loves you with all his heart.

i'm just that guy, ordinary, nothing interesting, not as good as your other guys.

so if that's the way i'm being treated by you, from now on, don't expect me to be friendly and considerate to you too. i didn't get any of those from you in the first place. you've killed the part of me that once loved you.
this parting will be such a sweet sorrow.

Rachael Yamagata - The Reason Why

2007-12-19T20:20:00.001+08:00

trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.

2007-12-17T16:08:00.000+08:00

/Edited

"There's a magical quality to true love, i think. it's not without cost or pain and agony. loves comes with sacrifice. you have to love the flaws in the person more than you love the good qualities, and if you can live with the flaws, then you can have true love." - Patrick Dempsey

i'm complicating my twisted mind, seems like everything is such a waste of time.
i think this is what you call a wipe out. i crashed and i'm still trapped in love's merciless barricade.
is what i am feeling all right? maybe it is. maybe i'm beginning to realize that with each sentence you said, you have already began tearing down my defenses.
the kind i set up so high and strong to prevent from hurting again, yet time and time again i gave in to your smile. she drained the life out of me, she's to die for.
and she's so damn fine.

yet you gave everything up all when things are difficult, and when things are easy, well there's nothing wrong with easy in the first place.
i fought hard to keep us alive, i fought hard to change. i fought hard to make you happy. and basically i fought. i fought for the one i cherish, the one i care about. the one i love.
just so you know, i fought for you. i fought to win you over him.
and for a second i thought i did. just to know that half of the time, i was used to get over him.

but this isn't about him, he don't have that kind of privilege for me to blog about.
this is about what happened. i truly loved you.
but right now there's nothing more i can say, is there?
there's so many boys out there after you, and you love the attention don't you?
i'm trying everything to keep my hands off you, so please give me anything to do that because i want you more than anyone of them do. i really do.
and when i thought i've learned to handle it, i got lost in your small, adorable eyes again.

this post is not a i hate you post.
it's more like a "jeremy needs to let out post".
so there.

jaslyn, thanks. you helped to keep me sane these few days
rachel, i'm glad my bitching bitch is back
matt, your killswitch engage dvd really helps!
sihong! haha thanks for talking to me in the wee hours
lucas, prata prata prata prata
yk, your amazing text msges that make so much sense!
mum, you saved me once again.

i love you all. thanks guys.

The Way We Talk - The Maine

ANNA

2007-12-16T01:05:00.001+08:00

What OC character are you?
created with QuizFarm.com

You scored as Anna

No one understands you. Your life revolves around being different and probably excessive romantic allusions. Stop being so self absorbed and put greater emphasis on examining the sensibility of your behavior to avoid simply becoming an abstract narcissist.

Anna

94%

Seth

78%

Marissa

72%

Oliver

72%

Jimmy

72%

Julie

67%

Ryan

61%

Kirsten

61%

Sandy

56%

Hailey

50%

Summer

50%

Luke

22%

Caleb

Alex Goot - We Could Love

2007-12-14T02:01:00.000+08:00

so maybe im just blind
or maybe i can't see
well either one is fine
i speak redundantly
its hard to see whats wrong
when you're diving in like me
i used to love relentlessly

so how can you remember everything?
is there a rulebook for our love
i'm not reading?
if we could just free up the laws
that bind our lives
then we could love
we could love

don't get me wrong here
i need you in my life
but we're independent people
at the current time
i know that years from now
a day will finally come for us to love perpetually

so how can you remember everything?
is there a rulebook for our love
i'm not reading?
if we could just free up the laws
that bind our lives
then we could love
we could love

this is where i draw the line this time
this just has to stop right here
if we can't just learn to live our lives
then we don't have any hope at all

so how can you remember everything?
is there a rulebook for our love
i'm not reading?
if we could just free up the laws
that bind our lives
then we could love
we could love

Geeks rocks

2007-12-10T20:20:00.000+08:00

A lovestruck Romeo sings the streets a serenade
Laying everybody low with a lovesong that he made
Finds a streetlight steps out of the shade
Says something like you and me babe how about it?

Juliet says hey it’s Romeo you nearly gimme a heart attack
He’s underneath the window she’s singing hey la my boyfriend’s back
You shouldn’t come around here singing up at people like that
Anyway what you gonna do about it?

Juliet the dice was loaded from the start
And I bet and you exploded in my heart
And I forget I forget the movie song
When you gonna realise it was just that the time was wrong Juliet?

Come up on different streets they both were streets of shame
Both dirty both mean yes and the dream was just the same
And I dreamed your dream for you and now your dream is real
How can you look at me as if I was just another one of your deals?

When you can fall for chains of silver you can fall for chains of gold
You can fall for pretty strangers and the promises they hold
You promised me everything you promised me thick and thin yeah
Now you just say oh Romeo yeah you know I used to have a scene with him

Juliet when we made love you used to cry
I said I love you like the stars above I’ll love you till I die
There’s a place for us you know the movie song
When you gonna realise it was just that the time was wrong juliet?

I can’t do the talk like they talk on TV
And I can’t do a love song like the way it’s meant to be
I can’t do everything but I’d do anything for you
I can’t do anything except be in love with you

And all I do is miss you and the way we used to be
All I do is keep the beat and bad company
All I do is kiss you through the bars of a rhyme
Julie I’d do the stars with you any time

Juliet when we made love you used to cry
I said I love you like the stars above I’ll love you till I die
And there’s a place for us you know the movie song
When you gonna realise it was just that the time was wrong Juliet?

And a lovestruck Romeo sings a streetsuss serenade
Laying everybody low with a lovesong that he made
Finds a convenient streetlight steps out of the shade
Says something like you and me babe how about it?

you made love visible

2007-12-02T14:30:00.000+08:00

distanced myself from your shadow
i'm one self down, it all directs to you
too late you're sorry, to wash your guilt from me
the path you lead so cold, revenge we choose now

standing between the fine line of love and hatred
this should have never been the situation
things are clear yet complicated
i wished that we could have been mistaken

so this is what i have so far, and the original sounds pretty intense.
there's potential but i dont know how far are we gonna push it.
hopefully we can tie down a vocalist asap. we really need to kick start everything, our plans and dreams.

i just think that Walk Away is so, hard to explain.
i really feel for lyrics. but sometimes it's so hard to let go and just walk away.
and i guess for now i'll stay the same. cause my kind's your kind.

Walk Away - Funeral For A Friend/ Maps - Yeah Yeah Yeahs

2007-11-30T12:39:00.000+08:00

All The Rage

2007-11-30T10:33:00.000+08:00

Why do we need this
Who was it that said
That great things come to great men
Well that fucker lied to us
There's nothing here but a wasteland,

But I can still see the graves of the dead
but it's useless
most of us would rather sit
than see this wound
that we have created
Let's not last the night
Let's not last the night

I'm sick and I'm tired of always being the good guy
I'm sick and I'm tired of always being the good guy

Senseless and I'm not sure why
I'm not going to pretend that I know all the answers
Of all of these questions
It's got to be good for something

So we'll chalk this up and we'll mount the dead
on the fireplace above right above our guilded heads

Like sitting in the back seat (it's all the rage)
and boring me with your body (it's all the rage)
and how many times can I say I'm sorry (it's all the rage)
and really mean it (and really mean it)

2007-11-21T10:00:00.000+08:00

i would just like to say this.
TO ALVIN FOONG, GO FUCK YOURSELF.
thank you very much.
sorry i ain't that good looking like yourself.

whatever it is you have no right to judge me, you have no right to even have an opinion about me.
because what i am is something you will never understand. you single child fuck face who don't know anything about being hurt, about losing things you love.

and to you.
seriously, whatever i saw in that text message says everything i need to know.
you have reached a new height in trying to break me apart.
and i think you have succeeded this time round.

i would just like to ask, have you always been this selfish? and love to talk about people behind your back? people who cared for you?
anyways i'm good, i don't think i could have been better.
finally knowing the ugly truth about everything.

Amber Pacific - Falling Away

2007-10-11T21:46:00.000+08:00

this emptiness and loneliness now, is something i will never what to feel ever again.
i am very scared actually.
maybe it's better for me to be alone, i've cause so much pain to everyone around me.
i really do love myself, but sometimes i wish there can be someone who can love back.
that will be nice i guess.

ah well. same old same old.
just different days i guess.
horrible this is.

Peaches - Fuck The Pain Away

2007-09-21T05:34:00.001+08:00

i cant sleep. even though my body is so so tired my mind is refusing to go to sleep.
i think my mind is stuffed with thoughts that they are actually suffocating my actually body.
where has the golden days gone to?
where was the girl that was sweet and always smiling?
maybe i've changed.
if i did, i've only caused my heart more pain than it can actually bear.
i guess i should have shut my heart tight. or atleast be like you, be like the egg, not ham.
in that way i wouldn't be hurt as much as i'm hurting now.

my head hurts now. as i'm typing all these words, i think to myself and wonder, am i writing empty words, or will whatever i'm writing make you truly understand.
understand that all i ever wanted was to care, to show you concern and to be there for you.

and all i wanted is a simple answer from you.
whether you still care or not.
and that you couldn't give me.

what more can i say.
i guess i'm done.

Silverchair - Miss You Love

2007-09-10T03:13:00.000+08:00

"if you have to let it go,
it these dreams keeps you awake.
if you have to let it go,
walk away."

so catching Funeral For A Friend has been an amazing and touching moment for me personally.
i've never felt like that for any other bands other than them, they have really changed my life.
they inspire me to go on and write songs, and to perform for the love for music and hopefully one day, we can do the same. make an impact as much as they did in my life.

so i'll be leaving to KL in the morning at 7am. and will be back on thursday night i think. i'm not so sure.
please take good care everyone, Iz, have fun in NS k. and especially YOU.
don't fall sick and please remember to eat and have plenty of sleep. and study.

Funeral For A Friend - Recovery

2007-09-08T02:07:00.000+08:00

you know, recently things has been pretty awesome.
with all the gig at the arena, Celine, FfaF being in town.
things has been looking up i guess.
right now i cant wait for the show later in the day! omg, been waiting so long.

well, i'm pretty a happy boy now.
and thank you for the burps and farts and pinches.

Funeral For A Friend !!!!!

2007-08-21T23:54:00.001+08:00

Please do come support us.

2007-08-15T00:06:00.000+08:00

so it's official we will be playing our second ever gig on the 25th this month at The Arena for some NJC's charity concert for cancer kids.
so much going on in such a short period of time.
and things has been looking up recently.

thank you.
and nowadays, when i smile, i mean it.

2007-08-02T22:56:00.000+08:00

so here's the pictures from the gig, which we sucked.

actually i only have three nice ones now. so yah.

2007-07-30T14:26:00.000+08:00

i miss playing this game.
):

2007-07-30T08:45:00.000+08:00

so the gig is finally over. it was an okie experience i guess.
the only good thing about gigging is it helps to get rid of the nervousness and anxiety before a show.
i hope people actually had fun. \:

i have got a few comments from Shen, which i will definately look to he future and try to improve on those mistakes he pointed out.
thank you so much Shen.

and a big thank you to everyone who made it.
people like Shen, Esther, Liting, Nurul, YK and her friends, Pam and Leonard, Celine (:, Hairi, Muz, the whole family. haha thank you.

there might be a second gig coming our way soon. (: hopefully it won't turn out badly.

Aqualung - Strange And Beautiful (I'll Put A Spell On You)

2007-07-27T11:38:00.000+08:00

omg it's one more day.
and hopefully i will stop raining.
was at Aston yesterday. i totally miss the food there.
hahaha it's so kick ass

die die, i'm still quite nervous about the gig.
sigh.

2007-07-24T14:35:00.000+08:00

please watch this clip.
this is the reason why some people, should just shut up.
it's fucking hilarious. i couldn't stop laughing.
oh man.. singaporeans kids.
insult one of my fav band.

2007-07-24T10:35:00.000+08:00

I know it's hard for you
To understand what I'm going through
But now I sit here to remind myself
You're always dressed to kill
And you feel like you owe it to the world
But you owe it to yourself

And you're, you're not here
And I can't stop pretending
That you're forever mine...
And I

I can't dream anymore since you left
I miss you singing me to sleep
I can't wake anymore in your arms
I miss you singing me to sleep

Cheer up my friends all say
You're better alone anyways
But you're always on tour
And you're never home
I'm always dressed to kill
And I feel like I owe it to the world
But I owe it to myself

And I can't stop pretending
That you're forever mine
You're better alone anyways
And you're not here, not here

I can't dream anymore since you left
I miss you singing me to sleep
I can't wake anymore in your arms
I miss you singing me to sleep
Cheer up my friends all say...

2007-07-23T12:56:00.000+08:00

i've always love this song.
now i've finally caught the video.
i'm so in love with it. but it's such a sad sad song.

if anyone is wondering what the words are that she's writing, here it is.

ll m'aime = he loves me
Un peu?= a little?
Beaucoup! = alot?
Passionnément = passionately?
A la folie = he's crazy about me?
Pas du tout = not at all

it's such a beautiful sad song.

Death Cab For Cutie - What Sarah Said

2007-07-22T22:44:00.000+08:00

2007-07-21T19:30:00.000+08:00

the whole world was at Home last night.
strange. too crowded for my liking.

2007-07-21T04:59:00.000+08:00

god, it's pains me so much.
you're always almost here, but never there.

New Found Glory - Ending In Tragedy

2007-07-19T21:48:00.000+08:00

"i miss you. i cant stop thinking about you, about how your day is going, whether are you waking up late for school.
or have you been eating, did you get caught in the rain."

you're hopeless jeremy.

2007-07-18T04:31:00.000+08:00

Tapestry 2007. Time to Play.

Venue: Wheelock Place, Orchard Road.
Time: 8.30pm.

This will be Alvery (my band) virgin performance.
So anyone who is free, please do come down and hang out with us.
Thank you so much. We will appreciate it so very much.

2007-07-16T23:37:00.000+08:00

we have managed to get a time slot at 8.30pm over at wheelock place.
so thank you Esther and your band for the change. thank you so much.

2007-07-16T20:32:00.000+08:00

i hate it.
a 12pm timeslot at wheelock. fuck man. i rather just pull out.
what the fuck is wrong with it man. what the fuck.
bad news after bad news.

you know, i care for you so much. and at the end of the day, you said it's just about me.
since when it's just about me? i've always agreed to go along with what you want to do with us and now you're telling me it's always about me?
and all i'm asking for is an explanation and you refuses to give me one because you want to sleep? so is that about me?
the reason why it can't work out is because you're always comparing me to your ex bf lah.
okie i understand he's so wonderful and i'm not. and you've also convinced yourself that we wouldn't work out. then what the hell am i trying for?
yes i'm bitter. i'm bitter because i've nv got that chance, that shot but yet so many time you just gave me the hope of it.
so this time i'm walking away. i've to be strong for myself.
this time i had enough. you have no right to say anything, because you're not here with me now.

/edit
(i take it back, everything i said earlier. i'm just angry, not at you. just at the fact that this whole situation have to end up this way. i wish you the best. take care. much much love.)

Mirrors - A Vacant Affair

2007-07-15T05:04:00.000+08:00

this is so funny. This Providence are so daring and cute for doing this video.
hahaha

2007-07-15T00:45:00.001+08:00

My Personality


Neuroticism	99
Extraversion	18
Openness To Experience	82
Agreeableness	45
Conscientiousness	18

You are introverted, reserved, and quiet with a preference for solitude and solitary activities. Your socializing tends to be restricted to a few close friends. You can be upset, even by what some people consider the normal demands of living. People consider you to be moderately sensitive and emotional. Novelty, variety, and change spice up your life and make you a curious, imaginative, and creative person. You have some concern with others' needs, and are generally pleasant, sympathetic, and cooperative. You like to live for the moment and do what feels good now. Your work tends to be careless and disorganized.

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Monthly Discount Ugg Boot specials

2007-07-14T02:11:00.000+08:00

"But sometimes no matter how much you love someone they just can’t love you back in the same way. Believe me son. Being with a woman who can’t love you back, way lonelier than being alone."

i really do want you to be happy. with or without me.

2007-07-13T10:54:00.000+08:00

wow this song is actually not bad. quite catchy. yup, that's Jamie Oliver on the drums.

anyways last night ava's acoustic set was not bad. so so much better than the last time they did acoustic.
and Izdi, did you get some last night?
from the looks of things, quite intense ah? hahaha careful brother.

so the final final final set of songs we are playing are confirmed already.
haha it's all by FFAF. it should be quite awesome i hope.
only if we don't screw up. or atleast if i don't screw it up.
28th is coming soon. and, today is strangely friday the 13th.
and my mother is singing outside now.
weird.

Funeral For A Friend - All The Rage

2007-07-11T02:58:00.000+08:00

nobody deserves to be alone. thank you Celine.
you saved me from myself.

"Four hundred years ago, another English guy had an opinion on being alone. John Donne. He thought we were never alone. Of course it was fancier when he said it. No man is an island entire onto himself. Boil down that island talk and he just means that all anyone needs is someone to step in and let us know we're not alone. - Meredith Grey"

2007-07-09T22:26:00.000+08:00

i had a wonderful and perfect day yesterday.
so thank you.

2007-07-08T06:33:00.000+08:00

i would first like to say that the tapestry gig, is quite a nerve wreaking experience so far. although it's not even close to the actual date of performance, it's already fucking my head up.
from the audition to the vocalist to the choosing of songs to the bad jamming session. god. we are so not ready.

and managed to catch AVA and West Grand on friday night at the esplanade.
Ava was, well, as much as i like to defend them, they were quite messy. but still awesome stage presence. West Grand was fun to watch, as always.

so in about an hour's time, i'll be having breakfast at the marriot hotel. the things i do. lol. so i couldn't sleep. been having trouble sleeping recently.
and youtube have been an awesome outlet to release boredom. and i'm downloading some movies online too. Singfest cost 150 smackers. god, i'm so broke. anyone willing to buy me a 21st birthday present? haha but please don't, i'm just kidding.
cause i'm only interested in watching Gym Class Heroes and The Academy Is.. so yup.
it's so not worth it. plus i have already got my FFAF's ticket. i'm a happy boy.

oh photoshop is.. is.. beyond description.
check this out.

amazing what PS can do.
so okie i'm gonna go get ready to call the cafe to book a table.
and, have good day everyone.

Rachael Yamagata - I'll Find A Way

2007-07-03T20:43:00.000+08:00

I like where we are,
When we drive, in your car
I like where we are.... Here

Cause our lips, can touch
And our cheeks, can brush
Our lips can touch here

Where you are the one, the one that lies close to me
Whisper's "Hello, I've missed you quite terribly"
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

I like where you sleep,
When you sleep, next to me.
I like where you sleep... here

Our lips, can touch
And our cheeks, can brush
Our lips can touch here

Where you are the one, the one that lies close to me
Whisper's "Hello, I've missed you quite terribly"
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

Our lips, can touch
Our lips, can touch...here

You are the one the one that lies close to me
Whisper's "Hello, I've missed you quite terribly"
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your

You are the one the one that lies close to me
Whisper's hello I miss you, I miss you
I fell in love, in love with you suddenly
Now there's no place else I could be but here in your arms

Here in your arms.
Here in your arms.

I stare into empty pockets.

2007-07-02T23:59:00.000+08:00

i need to start spending lesser this month after i got this. but i know at the end of the day it's all worth it.

just a smile from you can stop my entire world. hope you like the gift.

2007-06-27T03:04:00.001+08:00

so this is the confirmed songs list that we are gonna be playing for tapestry. rahh, i'm still damn nervous.

2007-06-26T22:32:00.000+08:00

haha so here's what's my desktop looks like after 3 days into having my new mac
and this is the

link

to the threadless page where my face is. thanks to Celine, haha

2007-06-24T16:23:00.000+08:00

this is my first entry from my Mac. haha i'm a delighted boy now.

2007-06-21T22:46:00.000+08:00

the caracal's boys. didn't really shoot much but yup. i guess that would do.
and yah, that's celine.

2007-06-21T02:56:00.000+08:00

i'm having trouble deciding what songs to play for tapestry.
i have three songs confirmed. but i want it to have a good feel to the set for the crowd.
wah fuck, this is harder than i thought it will be.

the 3 songs are,

Escape Artist Never Die - Funeral for a Friend
History - Funeral for a Friend
End Of Nothing - Funeral for a Friend

still deciding on,

Until The Day I Die - Story of the Year
This Year's Most Open Heartbreak - Funeral for a Friend
Streetcar - Funeral for a Friend
Into Oblivion(Reunion) - Funeral for a Friend

yup i know, alot of Funeral's songs.
and i cant stop myself from thinking of you.

Hoppipolla - Sigur Ros

2007-06-17T13:14:00.000+08:00

confirmed list of Tapestry Performers

Performing Groups for Tapestry 07 :)

1989
20 Dischanger
4-thirty
75th Location
A paperthin heart
A Staircase Farewell
Acid Rush
Airtime
Alvery
Amanda Tee
And They Whisper in Silence
Angelina
Anna Judge April
Arrowhead
AssaultNullified
AT
Beats Encore Percussion
Beatty Malay Dance Group
Blackbox
Black-ductape
Blind Meets Mute
Blow Out
BreedHerAgony
Car Crash Candle
Cardinal Avenue
Cherokee

Chio Yen Sen
Contact Details
COVENTIDE
Cursed Shadow
Cyn &Karl
Dav'z Nokeng

Dear Diary
Delirious Static
Despots
Doll Trash
Duxton Plains
Eleventhfinger
Ellipsis
Exotherma
Expression
Filet-O-Fish
Forth
Gordon Ng
Greyhound Movement
Haemorrhea
Hanging By A Thread
Harlequin Monologue
Her Perfect Flaw
Highway Storm
Indus Gendi
Interim
Intricate Sonority
Is You a Bear
Jamiel
Joie
Kegs
Knightsfall
Koh Shea Wei
Laramie
Lez Medettaz
Marcus Foong
Matya Ullaasa
Muddy Banks
Murder by Ska
OCEANUS
Oligarchy
Out of sentence
PancutDalam
PLUSHFOOLS
Point Sunset
PORTRAIT LIGHTS
PSYCHEDELIC 4
Punch of Eastern Souls
Punchline
Puteri Jentayu
Racing with Juliet
Radiant Archery
Revolute Nation
RJC Jazz Club
She falls asleep
She For Theory
Short Term Memory
SilkSutra
Slack relaxz
Slathe
Slingshot Ammo
Sponge
Stentorian
Story of His Life
Streetsites
T.K.A.K
T1 Crazy Dancers
Take Warning
Ten Second Scene
The Band
The Butterfly Effect
The Cheekeens
The Jackals
The Lagoonah Band
The Leaven Trait
The Nobellers
The Novelties
The November Iris
The Red Sunset
The suspended
The Vinyl Stones
Third Fret
Trella
Vinnie
Wreckmadness
XLR8
Zephyr

so i guess we're in then. roar. ):

2007-06-17T01:42:00.000+08:00

the silence i'm experiencing recently is so scary that i just started talking to myself. weird i know.
but anyways, i have a broken lips, and a badly bruised back because got idiots who don't know how to mosh. fuck.

and i have officially say goodbye to friendster.

Dashboard Confessional - Ghost Of A Good Thing

2007-06-14T17:54:00.000+08:00

you were a priority,
i was just an option.

2007-06-13T16:53:00.000+08:00

And there's the rub, we can talk for a while
But I have sweet nothings to say
You don't want me anyway, you don't want me anyway
So why, why should I stay?

So goodbye to you and your life
Your new best friends, your confidence
And I'll be here when you get home

Sitting halfway, away from nowhere
Praying for our lips to touch
Holding myself for a second
Just to catch you smile on this line

So goodbye to you and your life (two months, eight weeks)
Your new best friends, your confidence (turn my hours into days)
And I'll be here when you get home (when you get home)

So goodbye to you and your life (two months, eight weeks)
Your new best friends, your confidence (turn my hours into days)
And I'll be here when you get home, when you get home

I can't feel the same about you anymore

Is it just like you said it would be (it's never easy),
I can't feel this way about you anymore
Is it just like you said it would be (it's never easy),
I can't feel the same

I can't feel this way,
I can't feel the same about you anymore (it's never easy)
About you anymore (it's never easy)
No, I can't feel this way
I can't feel the same about you anymore (it's never easy)
About you anymore (it's never easy)
About you anymore

2007-06-08T19:02:00.000+08:00

I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind

Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did

I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own

I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight

I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove

And I didn't mean to meet you then
we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did

2007-06-03T03:37:00.001+08:00

sometimes i just hope that when shit happens you wouldn't just walk away, running to someone else.
cause even though that might be your way of dealing with things, it leaves me in a state of feeling helpless. useless.

i'm really trying hard. please try to see that.
i hope you will stop trying to have me all figure out.

A Vacant Affair - Famous Last Tears

when the sun shines again.

2007-06-03T02:23:00.000+08:00

Photographs from the Sick Of It All gig.

2007-05-30T23:49:00.000+08:00

2007-05-28T18:56:00.000+08:00

you know, the past 4 days has been really wonderful.
let's just hope that everything will stay the same, because what we have, this thing between you and me. is really good. so thank you.

Sick Of It All was good lah actually. but the security is totally fuckup.
what the hell were they doing, not doing their job at all.
that security fucker beside me is totally engrossed with taking his own photo on his digicam then making sure the crowd dont go jumping all over the stage.
my head got hit so many times man i tell you. dumbasses.

HomeClub later that night was good, tiring but really fun. it's so awesome be care less than what other people are thinking and just dancing your troubles away.
haha oh well. results are coming out soon. i'm freaking out.

Pulp - Common People